The Sun Is Shining For Me and You!

Here are a few words that inspired me to arise from Loss to Victory over the past few months. Courage was something I strongly held on to when all seemed to have been heading the wrong direction. Discovering it certainly had its time factor. Someway through time I' am once able to re-design my life through Courage and Hope for a better tomorrow. I now stand in a place that cannot be moved my none, but Myself. Achieving my dreams to this extent is far greater than what I had ever imagined and there is no intention at stopping, But always reach for the impossible. I only hope that these words will inspire person's who has lost all belief in life, as I once was lost but now found. A few words written by one man can certainly have an impact in your life. Therefore not just read but grasp the depths of these words and truly be inspired. It changed My Life. Hope it changes Yours. "Difficulties arise in the lives of us all. What is the most important is dealing with hard times, coping with changes and getting through the other side where the Sun is still shinning just for you. It takes a strong person to deal with tough times and difficult choices, But you are a strong person.  It takes courage, but you posses the inner courage to see you through.... It takes being an active participant in your life, but you are in the drivers seat and you can determine the direction you want tomorrow to go in . Hang in there and Take care to see that you don't lose sight of the one thing that is Constant, Beautiful and True. Everything will be fine and it will turn out that way, because of the special kind of person you are. So keep reminding yourself how special you are......Beginning today and lasting a lifetime through, Hang in there and don't be afraid to feel like the morning Sun is shining just FOR YOU...." - Douglas Pagals As I Did.... Begin to Believe in Yourself, When the World Fails to....

Best Friends For Life

How long have we known each other for? hmmmm 18years and still Good Friends. Friendship is so essential in life. Having the right kind is far more important than just having friends for the sake of it.

Shmana:) You have been my friend in spite of everything. I know how difficult  I' am as a person yet you love me truly for who I' am. We have laughed together, shed tears, I can  also reveal a few other intimate stuff we share;) but us girls we don't kiss and tell hehehe:) Friendship to me with you is like a flower that blossoms endlessly. A real friend is one who walks into your life when others walk out, and you my great friend are a rare precious one:) I treasure that and want you to know where ever life takes us, Married or not or have babies or not, I will always be there for you and Love you for a lifetime and more......... Thank You for this weekend.

Yasara:) My Precious one, suddenly you bring color and meaning into my life. You have always been there for me, yes very straight forward I agree;) but deep down your heart is pure and filled with love. Thank you for being with me and being one amazing person in my life. I cant thank you enough for all the good times I've had with you as you take me to places and give me reasons to enjoy life once again. A friend is someone who believes in you, when you have ceased to believe in your self. You are that friend to me. 

Girls I enjoyed the Fashion show so much and Yoshitha your  catwalk was amazing and unforgettable:) 

It sure was a night to remember and I know we will have many more coming soon:) including my fashion show:):):)...

At these times Amanthie I want you to know you complete our Sex and the City life Roles. I'm missing you dearly too:) 

Till we meet again, 

"Don't Walk in front of me, I may not Follow

Don't walk behind me, I may not Lead

Walk Beside me and be my Friend for Life"

Cousin Love

This weekend bought us all together again:) So why not a cousin night out? So the pedicures and manicures begin. Next pull out the wardrobe... hmmmmm Melissa says "Akki can I wear this dress"? straight after Natasha, "Akki please lend me your black dress" Chatz aka AKKI says " Girls why not we all wear black?" Then Purnima says "Mmmm my outfit is Black and White, is that ok?" hahahahaha we laugh and yes, girls do take  along time to get dressed so after 2hours finally we hit the clubs:) 

My Lovely Cousins, I had a great night and it bought me to thinking that I want to write to you a message to remember for a lifetime. I quite don't think I express myself too well these days so I try write to you something now. Maybe one day you all can look back in life and read this blog and remember Me your Akki:)

PURNIMA: Better known as My Babi:) I have watched you grow from the time you were born. Since our childhood together you were so attached to me and I always knew that as your big sister I will protect you. Here I am writing to tell you that where ever life may take you or me, I will always love you and be there for you. Thank You for always being there for me. One miss call away and I know you will come running to me with a big worry or at times a smile in your face with the same question everyday "Akki Is everything ok?" Yes babi.... as long as your in my life everything will be OK.:)

NATASHA: My Quani;) I know I give you a hard time. I want you to know the reason why I always advice you and preach to you. This is because I love you too much to watch you go astray in life or make the same mistakes I have done in my life. I can only always tell you and correct you, but my love in the end of the day it all comes down to you. I believe in you and see your goodness. I hope and pray you will succeed in life and find True Love once more. No matter what I will always be there for you:) Thank you for being in my life.

MELISSA: Lil Chatzy Version is what you are:) Melli gal you are so talented like me. I want you to grab each opportunity that comes and most importantly to enjoy life. I always tell you "life is too short to waste on negativity" Remember that and live life to the fullest. I see you going far in life. Thank you for being who you are and reaching up-to me as your big sister because I will always be your big Sister with much love in my heart for you.:)

Having said all that, I hope that life brings all of us great happiness and strength to fight each obstacle that comes are way. It doesn't matter what difficulties or set backs you will face in life, I Chatz your Akki Will Always Be There For you!

Now How about another night out?;):):).........

Story Behind Obsessive Love......

After all the stressful rushing around and putting together my First original single "Obsessive Love" I finally have gotten some free time in my hands to write:) So Today I write The story behind my song.

Obsessive Love is something that could happen to anyone knowingly or unknowingly in a relationship. During an intense deep Skype conversation between me and my good friend Anna, I was inspired by her  to take on this title for the song. Annaki made time to make me realise that I too once had an obsessive love for a person very close to my heart. In time I studied that  "Love" us humans experaince when in a relationship is a wheel that spins in our life. This wheel if however spins in the wrong direction, this is what you are left with. I have broken it down to four stages as highlighted in my song.

First Stage - First Verse:
This is the stage that makes our hearts wobble and gives us butterfly feelings in our tummies. The stage that you see a person and immediately you are mesmerized and taken away and you know in a second that you and the other person are meant to be. So with sudden feelings you wonder if this is the begining of something new?

Second Stage - Second Verse
The confused stage, without you knowing it your ruining your relationship with jealousy. Jealousy comes to all of us when in love with someone in a deep manner. It is rather not healthy but feelings of doubt sure does take over. So you are now in  a relationship and growing together in-spite of your differences however one suddenly wonders if its me that person needs or is there someone else out there? These insecurities are hard to be controlled in a world that is full of available options. Yet one must understand that true love has no options and the only option is you and your partner.

Third Stage - Bridge
Disaster stage has begun. With great wonder you begin to realize is this where it ends for us? Yes suddenly destruction find its way to destroy your relationship. It could be for any reasons like mistakes and regrets one has made. Through anger you fight the rush of rage. Frustration, anxiety, depression all this begins and makes you weak as a person. You want to escape but you somehow don't know how.

Stage Four - Chorus
The stage that gives you hope to live. With Complete complicated emotions you begin to think that the bad times have come, sure it has but nothing lasts forever because the good times are just ahead of you. The Chorus highlights feelings that how one realizes the stress of wanting to be with the one you love. It is hard to let go yet its a matter of fact of how much time you allow yourself to do. Time is a great healer so they say and now I say. Someway somehow you begin to fight your way back through it all with courage and hope for a better future, perhaps another Love.


I hope that all of you in some way might find its way to relate to this song. If You don't your a unique Star that shines in someones life:) but to many of us we have experienced the Obsessive Love Wheel. It is up to you to cherrish what you have in the relationship. Save the good throw the bad and spin the wheel in the correct direction. Less heartache the better:)

Remember life is full of choices. The right ones will Perish while the wrong ones will Destroy you. Seek and choose your next relationship Wisely.

MOHOMBI

Bump Bump and Boom Boom, its gonna be a Bumpy Ride......

You pulled me under, you pulled me over,

made my body surrender tonight,

who can love me? who can hold me? 

You will never find someone like MOHOMBI.... :) 

A warm heart and a very down to earth  person is he. Half Swedish and Congolese no wonder he is so Good looking:) Having come from a family as big as 14 kids I had the pleasure to meet not only Mohombi but his brother JOE who encouraged Mohombi to get into the spotlight.  

Hanging out together and having cocktails with the entire team it sure was an honor:) And it doesn't end there, Tonight is the BIG Night. MOHOMBI LIVE IN CONCERT ft IYAZ be there at CH n FC grounds 7pm onwards, for a night to remember:)

Under the Coconut Trees we stand

I will never forget this summer here in Colombo..... AYUBOWAN !

OBSESSED LOVE!

Obsessive Love

As I see you walking towards me
A rush of feelings sweep through within
Do I think your infatuated with me
Is this, a beginning for you and me

Obsessive love  you and me...... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The sorrow of wanting to be with you

Need to know if its me that you need
Jealousy comes inside screaming, crushing
And I see you staring straight at me
Is this where it ends for you and me

Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The agony of yearning to be with you

Destruction has found its way,
to destroy whats left of us.....
Obsessed love brought me down, Seething rage has just begun
Through it all I fight my way back
From this obsessive love wheel.


Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The misery of wanting to be with you

Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The distress of wanting to be with you................

Music Video Out! Enjoy xxx

MY BEAUTIFUL SOUL!

A Soul is Eternal! It has One beginning and No End. How you nurture your soul is completely in ones hands. For many of us we forget to nurture and enrich our souls to higher standards. We forget to feed our souls with good deeds. Acts of Love, Kindness, Forgiveness are a few deeds among many other that one could preserve somewhere deep within to enhance the beauty of your soul.

I have met and still continue meeting humans who have Two kinds of Souls. Some carry Goodness and Greatness in them where as sadly many have darkened souls that are hidden in the depths of destruction.

Annaki, You however certainly know how to hold a Beautiful yet a Pure Soul. A soul that is filled with goodness beyond imagination. You are one in a million that perseveres such purity. If one knew you they would instantly be mesmerized by your golden heart that is filled with much Love which is the key as to why your soul is so Beautiful to me.

Your existence in my life is greatly thanked to the high  one above each day, and off course I take this opportunity to tell you how precious you are to me. Words cant express my appreciation of your love to me. Day to day knowing i'm loved by you endlessly, I have reasons to be strong because of humans like you. I thank you today for being my strength during hard times.

You have once again without a shadow of doubt proved to me how wonderful life is to have you and your Beautiful Soul!