Already Gone

I want you to know that it doesn't matter... Someone's gotta go.....I'm already Gone....

'Take Me As I Am'

A story can be told or written in many ways. Its is the reader who decides how to relate. This story continues with great mystery. The rest is yet un-written....

Painted a different picture to the unknown and the known suffers the tainted loss of love. Whispers spreading around with words that speaks out so loud. Scream, Yell, Rebel, Battle, Yet left with no glory, She hopes. Shattered Dreams and promises broken on a day, the unknown keeps
taking them away. Funny as it may sound, we are bound to lose to bruise. She now wonders through time, through space, seeking care, warmth and a little bit of Hope to Love Again...

Grown in an environment to find how beautiful life is, she wonders and walks the earth in search of serenity. Trembling at the thoughts of what is out there she soon understands the line beneath it all. In a matter of time her heart so chaste is destroyed. Walking into the path of a doomed relationship full of deception, her love is now betrayed, degraded, dismayed, damaged, antagonized in ways so brutal that a young flower that once bloomed now slowly withers away. Not recognized she begins to hide in a place till she finds a safe haven. After Being the victim of innocence in the midst of trying to pave her way back to life to reach a path of goodness her journey ends with cruelty that has entangled her in situations without the known being aware. In the outside world the prudent beasts that prey upon her for a piece of her youth only to satisfy their heartless apetite for destruction continues seeking young maidens as her. These savages concentrate on nothing but there selfish ways and means, yet her purity, her golden heart she carries, her great believes for all humanity to carry good in their soul has only been proven wrong. With great shock to her dismay her fright turns to reality when she discovers how untrue and vicious the once that existed in her heart can be. They wear masks hiding their true identity living in a world that has no moral, ethical value above all no respect. She now wonders where are the virtuous hiding?

With much questions, confusion, frustration she slowly walks towards the unknown hoping for a second chance of a not so betrayed love. One is to understand that it is useless to justify the truth to the prevaricator when theres nothing sincere left in him. She is hurt, wounded and she tries hard to hide the scars, the pain, the tears of rain. Her journey now leads her to carry malice and hatred towards the unkind who has no mercy but is only open to tragedy. Now knowingly she is bound to cross another path, perhaps a new one less miserable and more empathy. Time permits her to face the one she refuses to look back at. Once faced eye to eye she lingers and craves for that touch, the words, the feelings once they shared so deep so profound that no memory can wipe away the beautiful encounters they shared. With much fear her heart suddenly holds on to that bit of love she received only to soon realize that love was an act of war. A war now she fights bravely and courageously hoping to have a better end. With no hero beside her she claims her award of honor. In Thought she slowly awaits for retribution to the ones who are soon to face the judgement day. The penalty of a reckless heart that caused her great grief and discomfort. If that day were to come perhaps the final verdict shall hold a key to release the imprudent character of the unknown and equally share the one true thing that can save them all 'Forgiveness'. Considering the options of renewing their old Love to something more fundamental even sufficient she thinks....

Significantly with nothing more to offer, barely holding on, slowly but surely knowing that the unknown is slipping away, refusing to embrace the nightmare she faced, to our horror her confused mind leaves her crying pleading with her final request to the unknown 'Take me as I am or Watch me as I Go'....

My Special Kind of Love

Inspite of it all I don't regret that I met you... It feels like your the cold that I can't shake nor break. With you I felt something and now I bear all the pain like I'm wearing your blanket even when it's not that cold. You use to be the warm loving one, I use to be the cold hearted fool, Now I'm nothing but the cool breeze in someone else's hair. I don't want to forget you, I don't want to move on just yet. Are you the salt in my wound? Is your heart the one that I can't break? You still are the song in my head....But most of all, You are My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all I'll cherish all those moments, I'll keep them close in my heart, my soul until it all drives me crazy. Now you are the scar that I can't hide, You are the bond that I cant break, Free myself from this hurt yet I hide beside you waiting for a day to be seen again. I can crawl back to you, But how far must I go before you take me in? I keep running down this road, Seems like there's no end to this load. Are you the hole in my shoe? Can't bear this shame this feeling of not knowing where I stand with you anymore. Can you be the joy in my heart? The song in my head? The sun in my hair? The breeze I can breath?.....But most of all can you be My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all can you be the one to paint my world with color? This black and white thin dark line of life makes me feel too lost out there. You found me when I was buried with nothing to hold on to, Nothing to look forward to. You told me that the world was nothing but a big canvas that we can paint together. Instead of being that artist true to your art you drew a different picture. One that I did not have in mind. Are you the broken brush that smudged my paint? You are the blank paper I once had, The ink I never found, The pen that was too sharp. You could be the light in my life or the tears in my rain, You can be the man of my dreams....But most of all, Can you be My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all the dreams I dream't you were my new dream. Your lies burnt that dream and now your the truth that I can't take. Still you can be the truth in my life, If you chose to set yourself free from your own lies. I will be the sun in your eyes, I could be the one you will never forget, I can be the one to heal you, Mostly because I don't want to move on just yet. I can be your lullaby when the world is failing, falling on you, I can bear all your pain, I can be the one beside you, Then we can be the stars in the sky, We can be the love that never dies, We can drive each other crazy, We can be the bond that never breaks,....But most of all, we can be that Special Kind of Love.....