I Can't Make You Love Me...

If there is Perfection in Music and Lyrics... Then this is My Song...


Turn down the lights, Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, And tell me no lies
Just hold me closely, Don't patronize
Don't patronize me....

Cause I can't make you Love me if you don't...
You can't make your heart feel something that you won't...
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I will feel the power....
But you won't, No you won't
Cause I cant make you Love me when you don't,
When you don't.....

I'll close my eyes, Then I won't see
The Love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and i'll do what's right
Just give me till then, To give up this fight
And I will give up this fight...

No you Won't.... I Can't Make You Love Me....

Leave a Light On...

Its been a long Road...so long, I still walk...

Seasons keep changing and the air begins to smell so different. The old Summer smell I once breathed deep into me now seems so far away from me. This intense feeling of being trapped to a certain situation keeps dragging me back to a nightmare where I seem to cant wake myself up from. Summer is moving on and so are the pages in my book of life. Some chapters closed some re-opens. It is written and it writes with time it renews it heals. Never have I really said too much, was afraid it wasn't enough, maybe I was late, maybe not, no matter what now i'm trying to keep my spirit up when I know there's no point in grieving over the past.

Hoping to see the light that once shown, I still walk the road. Somehow in someway I cant seem to find the end of it... that end light is something I rely on to get back on the right track to get back home. As cold as I' am, I freeze all thoughts and empty space fills up with new dreams. Searching for that fire that once kept me warm I wait for the dreams to turn to reality.

I feel in the midst of pain I feel. How can one fear to open their spirit and welcome another. So broken pieces can be amended but those scars where do they go? I put a smile on my face with courage and with great fear, I surrender to your arms. Then what? I escape? I  run?  I scream? and without me even knowing it I push you so far away. I expect so much knowing when in life how expectations become great and how great expectations lead you to destruction and ruins your own story. Knowing such  things why is it that I keep ruining my story? is a happy ending too much to ask for? My story is a blur. A big black blur and in the midst of this struggle I'm trying to find more ink to write an exciting chapter. Will you be my Ink? I want to feel what you feel for me but I cant change who you are or what you feel. I am me and this is me...Will you take me as I' am? Sometimes all this feels like a mixed up wire that crosses your brain and your tangled in a situation where your choices chose your destiny. What are my choices?

I want to figure things out. ......I do... I really do... Maybe you will start my heart again....maybe you wont, or maybe you will be a new chapter in my life? Or maybe old chapters will re- open. I await to re-write my story but for now I'm lost.

So I walk.... Try to leave a Light On when I',m Gone...

The Sun Is Shining For Me and You!

Here are a few words that inspired me to arise from Loss to Victory over the past few months. Courage was something I strongly held on to when all seemed to have been heading the wrong direction. Discovering it certainly had its time factor. Someway through time I' am once able to re-design my life through Courage and Hope for a better tomorrow. I now stand in a place that cannot be moved my none, but Myself. Achieving my dreams to this extent is far greater than what I had ever imagined and there is no intention at stopping, But always reach for the impossible. I only hope that these words will inspire person's who has lost all belief in life, as I once was lost but now found. A few words written by one man can certainly have an impact in your life. Therefore not just read but grasp the depths of these words and truly be inspired. It changed My Life. Hope it changes Yours. "Difficulties arise in the lives of us all. What is the most important is dealing with hard times, coping with changes and getting through the other side where the Sun is still shinning just for you. It takes a strong person to deal with tough times and difficult choices, But you are a strong person.  It takes courage, but you posses the inner courage to see you through.... It takes being an active participant in your life, but you are in the drivers seat and you can determine the direction you want tomorrow to go in . Hang in there and Take care to see that you don't lose sight of the one thing that is Constant, Beautiful and True. Everything will be fine and it will turn out that way, because of the special kind of person you are. So keep reminding yourself how special you are......Beginning today and lasting a lifetime through, Hang in there and don't be afraid to feel like the morning Sun is shining just FOR YOU...." - Douglas Pagals As I Did.... Begin to Believe in Yourself, When the World Fails to....