Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Dawn of a New Year!

Like the wind that passes you by, another year has gone. Gone so fast that past memories are just thrown down. Like a storm that washes you away, blown by it and caught by it, with many mixed emotions and feelings. I stood there and watch it all crash down. In a second it all disappeared.  All I’m left with is the smell of your perfume all around me even when you’re gone. I see you here with me. Holding me, comforting me and grasping life the way it is. I try to reach out to you then I find you not near me, like the sweeper sweep dust, you are gone, swept off from me.

Many days that were to be treasured just turned to days of pain and agony. Hurt keeps taking over and there’s no room to breathe anymore. In the background at work I hear a song that once was whispered to my ear by you, you said truly madly deeply you will love me. That you want to stand on a mountain, bathe in the sea, and lay with me forever until the sky falls down. Did such words have meaning? Power to overcome any situation that arises? Or was it just words said for that moment alone? Trying to believe moments that never lasted forever, here I’ am entering a new year a new month a new life.

Don’t want to carry past mistakes anymore, just want to go forward, yet you keep pulling me back to a mess that I can’t help anymore. Guess forgiveness has far away to go. What can I do to change it to the better? I get help in every way I can, I try to make a change, but If I don’t have you is this fight all worth the while?

This New Year we all need to start new, start fresh, start over, forget and forgive all past mistakes made in life. Remember us humans are programmed to fall and rise at the same time. Tell yourself when doubting you can overcome problems.  Believe in yourself and the world will believe in you, let your resolutions set your goals higher in life. Reach out to the stars they will guide you. There is a higher power above. Believe in that. It certainly took me somewhere in life. It picked me up when I was fallen, it gave me hope. It will do the same for you.

Actions that caused us distance were mistakes. Having a resolution of live and learn is what I hope for. May this New Year bring all our dreams and wishes to come true. May it bring us closer once more. I hope it will be a year to believe in love again, to believe in people again, to forgive and receive forgiveness.  A year to be remembered for laughter and joy, not pain and sorrow.  A year to be remembered for the new person you ought to be not the old broken person you were. Now let the tide of tears come wash away my pain and let hope of a new dawn draw me to happiness once again. So Goodbye 2010 and Hello 2011.

1 comment:

  1. Where we love is home, home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts. hey no matter what chatz take it easy,, god will help you out,, i have seen you cry so much at office,, i know u are very upset,, and u will never do anything wrong again,,god will help u out trust him,,,god bless u,,,