Already Gone

I want you to know that it doesn't matter... Someone's gotta go.....I'm already Gone....

'Take Me As I Am'

A story can be told or written in many ways. Its is the reader who decides how to relate. This story continues with great mystery. The rest is yet un-written....

Painted a different picture to the unknown and the known suffers the tainted loss of love. Whispers spreading around with words that speaks out so loud. Scream, Yell, Rebel, Battle, Yet left with no glory, She hopes. Shattered Dreams and promises broken on a day, the unknown keeps
taking them away. Funny as it may sound, we are bound to lose to bruise. She now wonders through time, through space, seeking care, warmth and a little bit of Hope to Love Again...

Grown in an environment to find how beautiful life is, she wonders and walks the earth in search of serenity. Trembling at the thoughts of what is out there she soon understands the line beneath it all. In a matter of time her heart so chaste is destroyed. Walking into the path of a doomed relationship full of deception, her love is now betrayed, degraded, dismayed, damaged, antagonized in ways so brutal that a young flower that once bloomed now slowly withers away. Not recognized she begins to hide in a place till she finds a safe haven. After Being the victim of innocence in the midst of trying to pave her way back to life to reach a path of goodness her journey ends with cruelty that has entangled her in situations without the known being aware. In the outside world the prudent beasts that prey upon her for a piece of her youth only to satisfy their heartless apetite for destruction continues seeking young maidens as her. These savages concentrate on nothing but there selfish ways and means, yet her purity, her golden heart she carries, her great believes for all humanity to carry good in their soul has only been proven wrong. With great shock to her dismay her fright turns to reality when she discovers how untrue and vicious the once that existed in her heart can be. They wear masks hiding their true identity living in a world that has no moral, ethical value above all no respect. She now wonders where are the virtuous hiding?

With much questions, confusion, frustration she slowly walks towards the unknown hoping for a second chance of a not so betrayed love. One is to understand that it is useless to justify the truth to the prevaricator when theres nothing sincere left in him. She is hurt, wounded and she tries hard to hide the scars, the pain, the tears of rain. Her journey now leads her to carry malice and hatred towards the unkind who has no mercy but is only open to tragedy. Now knowingly she is bound to cross another path, perhaps a new one less miserable and more empathy. Time permits her to face the one she refuses to look back at. Once faced eye to eye she lingers and craves for that touch, the words, the feelings once they shared so deep so profound that no memory can wipe away the beautiful encounters they shared. With much fear her heart suddenly holds on to that bit of love she received only to soon realize that love was an act of war. A war now she fights bravely and courageously hoping to have a better end. With no hero beside her she claims her award of honor. In Thought she slowly awaits for retribution to the ones who are soon to face the judgement day. The penalty of a reckless heart that caused her great grief and discomfort. If that day were to come perhaps the final verdict shall hold a key to release the imprudent character of the unknown and equally share the one true thing that can save them all 'Forgiveness'. Considering the options of renewing their old Love to something more fundamental even sufficient she thinks....

Significantly with nothing more to offer, barely holding on, slowly but surely knowing that the unknown is slipping away, refusing to embrace the nightmare she faced, to our horror her confused mind leaves her crying pleading with her final request to the unknown 'Take me as I am or Watch me as I Go'....

My Special Kind of Love

Inspite of it all I don't regret that I met you... It feels like your the cold that I can't shake nor break. With you I felt something and now I bear all the pain like I'm wearing your blanket even when it's not that cold. You use to be the warm loving one, I use to be the cold hearted fool, Now I'm nothing but the cool breeze in someone else's hair. I don't want to forget you, I don't want to move on just yet. Are you the salt in my wound? Is your heart the one that I can't break? You still are the song in my head....But most of all, You are My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all I'll cherish all those moments, I'll keep them close in my heart, my soul until it all drives me crazy. Now you are the scar that I can't hide, You are the bond that I cant break, Free myself from this hurt yet I hide beside you waiting for a day to be seen again. I can crawl back to you, But how far must I go before you take me in? I keep running down this road, Seems like there's no end to this load. Are you the hole in my shoe? Can't bear this shame this feeling of not knowing where I stand with you anymore. Can you be the joy in my heart? The song in my head? The sun in my hair? The breeze I can breath?.....But most of all can you be My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all can you be the one to paint my world with color? This black and white thin dark line of life makes me feel too lost out there. You found me when I was buried with nothing to hold on to, Nothing to look forward to. You told me that the world was nothing but a big canvas that we can paint together. Instead of being that artist true to your art you drew a different picture. One that I did not have in mind. Are you the broken brush that smudged my paint? You are the blank paper I once had, The ink I never found, The pen that was too sharp. You could be the light in my life or the tears in my rain, You can be the man of my dreams....But most of all, Can you be My Special Kind of Love...

Inspite of it all the dreams I dream't you were my new dream. Your lies burnt that dream and now your the truth that I can't take. Still you can be the truth in my life, If you chose to set yourself free from your own lies. I will be the sun in your eyes, I could be the one you will never forget, I can be the one to heal you, Mostly because I don't want to move on just yet. I can be your lullaby when the world is failing, falling on you, I can bear all your pain, I can be the one beside you, Then we can be the stars in the sky, We can be the love that never dies, We can drive each other crazy, We can be the bond that never breaks,....But most of all, we can be that Special Kind of Love.....

I Can't Make You Love Me...

If there is Perfection in Music and Lyrics... Then this is My Song...


Turn down the lights, Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, And tell me no lies
Just hold me closely, Don't patronize
Don't patronize me....

Cause I can't make you Love me if you don't...
You can't make your heart feel something that you won't...
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I will feel the power....
But you won't, No you won't
Cause I cant make you Love me when you don't,
When you don't.....

I'll close my eyes, Then I won't see
The Love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and i'll do what's right
Just give me till then, To give up this fight
And I will give up this fight...

No you Won't.... I Can't Make You Love Me....

Leave a Light On...

Its been a long Road...so long, I still walk...

Seasons keep changing and the air begins to smell so different. The old Summer smell I once breathed deep into me now seems so far away from me. This intense feeling of being trapped to a certain situation keeps dragging me back to a nightmare where I seem to cant wake myself up from. Summer is moving on and so are the pages in my book of life. Some chapters closed some re-opens. It is written and it writes with time it renews it heals. Never have I really said too much, was afraid it wasn't enough, maybe I was late, maybe not, no matter what now i'm trying to keep my spirit up when I know there's no point in grieving over the past.

Hoping to see the light that once shown, I still walk the road. Somehow in someway I cant seem to find the end of it... that end light is something I rely on to get back on the right track to get back home. As cold as I' am, I freeze all thoughts and empty space fills up with new dreams. Searching for that fire that once kept me warm I wait for the dreams to turn to reality.

I feel in the midst of pain I feel. How can one fear to open their spirit and welcome another. So broken pieces can be amended but those scars where do they go? I put a smile on my face with courage and with great fear, I surrender to your arms. Then what? I escape? I  run?  I scream? and without me even knowing it I push you so far away. I expect so much knowing when in life how expectations become great and how great expectations lead you to destruction and ruins your own story. Knowing such  things why is it that I keep ruining my story? is a happy ending too much to ask for? My story is a blur. A big black blur and in the midst of this struggle I'm trying to find more ink to write an exciting chapter. Will you be my Ink? I want to feel what you feel for me but I cant change who you are or what you feel. I am me and this is me...Will you take me as I' am? Sometimes all this feels like a mixed up wire that crosses your brain and your tangled in a situation where your choices chose your destiny. What are my choices?

I want to figure things out. ......I do... I really do... Maybe you will start my heart again....maybe you wont, or maybe you will be a new chapter in my life? Or maybe old chapters will re- open. I await to re-write my story but for now I'm lost.

So I walk.... Try to leave a Light On when I',m Gone...

The Sun Is Shining For Me and You!

Here are a few words that inspired me to arise from Loss to Victory over the past few months. Courage was something I strongly held on to when all seemed to have been heading the wrong direction. Discovering it certainly had its time factor. Someway through time I' am once able to re-design my life through Courage and Hope for a better tomorrow. I now stand in a place that cannot be moved my none, but Myself. Achieving my dreams to this extent is far greater than what I had ever imagined and there is no intention at stopping, But always reach for the impossible. I only hope that these words will inspire person's who has lost all belief in life, as I once was lost but now found. A few words written by one man can certainly have an impact in your life. Therefore not just read but grasp the depths of these words and truly be inspired. It changed My Life. Hope it changes Yours. "Difficulties arise in the lives of us all. What is the most important is dealing with hard times, coping with changes and getting through the other side where the Sun is still shinning just for you. It takes a strong person to deal with tough times and difficult choices, But you are a strong person.  It takes courage, but you posses the inner courage to see you through.... It takes being an active participant in your life, but you are in the drivers seat and you can determine the direction you want tomorrow to go in . Hang in there and Take care to see that you don't lose sight of the one thing that is Constant, Beautiful and True. Everything will be fine and it will turn out that way, because of the special kind of person you are. So keep reminding yourself how special you are......Beginning today and lasting a lifetime through, Hang in there and don't be afraid to feel like the morning Sun is shining just FOR YOU...." - Douglas Pagals As I Did.... Begin to Believe in Yourself, When the World Fails to....

Story Behind Obsessive Love......

After all the stressful rushing around and putting together my First original single "Obsessive Love" I finally have gotten some free time in my hands to write:) So Today I write The story behind my song.

Obsessive Love is something that could happen to anyone knowingly or unknowingly in a relationship. During an intense deep Skype conversation between me and my good friend Anna, I was inspired by her  to take on this title for the song. Annaki made time to make me realise that I too once had an obsessive love for a person very close to my heart. In time I studied that  "Love" us humans experaince when in a relationship is a wheel that spins in our life. This wheel if however spins in the wrong direction, this is what you are left with. I have broken it down to four stages as highlighted in my song.

First Stage - First Verse:
This is the stage that makes our hearts wobble and gives us butterfly feelings in our tummies. The stage that you see a person and immediately you are mesmerized and taken away and you know in a second that you and the other person are meant to be. So with sudden feelings you wonder if this is the begining of something new?

Second Stage - Second Verse
The confused stage, without you knowing it your ruining your relationship with jealousy. Jealousy comes to all of us when in love with someone in a deep manner. It is rather not healthy but feelings of doubt sure does take over. So you are now in  a relationship and growing together in-spite of your differences however one suddenly wonders if its me that person needs or is there someone else out there? These insecurities are hard to be controlled in a world that is full of available options. Yet one must understand that true love has no options and the only option is you and your partner.

Third Stage - Bridge
Disaster stage has begun. With great wonder you begin to realize is this where it ends for us? Yes suddenly destruction find its way to destroy your relationship. It could be for any reasons like mistakes and regrets one has made. Through anger you fight the rush of rage. Frustration, anxiety, depression all this begins and makes you weak as a person. You want to escape but you somehow don't know how.

Stage Four - Chorus
The stage that gives you hope to live. With Complete complicated emotions you begin to think that the bad times have come, sure it has but nothing lasts forever because the good times are just ahead of you. The Chorus highlights feelings that how one realizes the stress of wanting to be with the one you love. It is hard to let go yet its a matter of fact of how much time you allow yourself to do. Time is a great healer so they say and now I say. Someway somehow you begin to fight your way back through it all with courage and hope for a better future, perhaps another Love.


I hope that all of you in some way might find its way to relate to this song. If You don't your a unique Star that shines in someones life:) but to many of us we have experienced the Obsessive Love Wheel. It is up to you to cherrish what you have in the relationship. Save the good throw the bad and spin the wheel in the correct direction. Less heartache the better:)

Remember life is full of choices. The right ones will Perish while the wrong ones will Destroy you. Seek and choose your next relationship Wisely.

MOHOMBI

Bump Bump and Boom Boom, its gonna be a Bumpy Ride......

You pulled me under, you pulled me over,

made my body surrender tonight,

who can love me? who can hold me? 

You will never find someone like MOHOMBI.... :) 

A warm heart and a very down to earth  person is he. Half Swedish and Congolese no wonder he is so Good looking:) Having come from a family as big as 14 kids I had the pleasure to meet not only Mohombi but his brother JOE who encouraged Mohombi to get into the spotlight.  

Hanging out together and having cocktails with the entire team it sure was an honor:) And it doesn't end there, Tonight is the BIG Night. MOHOMBI LIVE IN CONCERT ft IYAZ be there at CH n FC grounds 7pm onwards, for a night to remember:)

Under the Coconut Trees we stand

I will never forget this summer here in Colombo..... AYUBOWAN !

OBSESSED LOVE!

Obsessive Love

As I see you walking towards me
A rush of feelings sweep through within
Do I think your infatuated with me
Is this, a beginning for you and me

Obsessive love  you and me...... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The sorrow of wanting to be with you

Need to know if its me that you need
Jealousy comes inside screaming, crushing
And I see you staring straight at me
Is this where it ends for you and me

Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The agony of yearning to be with you

Destruction has found its way,
to destroy whats left of us.....
Obsessed love brought me down, Seething rage has just begun
Through it all I fight my way back
From this obsessive love wheel.


Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The misery of wanting to be with you

Obsessive love you and me....... Yeah
Strong feelings I fight deep within
All a long, controlled, in denial I see
The distress of wanting to be with you................

Music Video Out! Enjoy xxx

MY BEAUTIFUL SOUL!

A Soul is Eternal! It has One beginning and No End. How you nurture your soul is completely in ones hands. For many of us we forget to nurture and enrich our souls to higher standards. We forget to feed our souls with good deeds. Acts of Love, Kindness, Forgiveness are a few deeds among many other that one could preserve somewhere deep within to enhance the beauty of your soul.

I have met and still continue meeting humans who have Two kinds of Souls. Some carry Goodness and Greatness in them where as sadly many have darkened souls that are hidden in the depths of destruction.

Annaki, You however certainly know how to hold a Beautiful yet a Pure Soul. A soul that is filled with goodness beyond imagination. You are one in a million that perseveres such purity. If one knew you they would instantly be mesmerized by your golden heart that is filled with much Love which is the key as to why your soul is so Beautiful to me.

Your existence in my life is greatly thanked to the high  one above each day, and off course I take this opportunity to tell you how precious you are to me. Words cant express my appreciation of your love to me. Day to day knowing i'm loved by you endlessly, I have reasons to be strong because of humans like you. I thank you today for being my strength during hard times.

You have once again without a shadow of doubt proved to me how wonderful life is to have you and your Beautiful Soul!

CHRISTINA och MATILDA

Safely returned home, back in sunny exotic Sri Lanka. Thinking about the great time I have had in London, I just cant get enough of it as my heart screams to go back there. Feeling unwell after an operation that I have had due to excess toxic of pure alcohol ...  hmmmm now whose to be blamed for such intake? my partners in crime off course.. Yes Christina and Matilda I greatly miss you two deeply.

Trying, but very painfully I sit in bed right now thinking how much you made my trip alive with all the love, laughter and off course during my hurtful times you two were both there for me and in fact you still continue to give me all your love. You both showed me that the distance between any ocean nor any mountain or any barrier could not break or tear our friendship a part.

Thank you for being two amazing human souls who have been there for me during this difficult time. I Miss You deeply and cant wait to spend more moments together soon. Till then my Swedish beauties, Skype Dates and various other technology will keep us all close to each other at all times.

All My Love and Thoughts........

I MISS YOU!.................

SOMETIMES....

Sometimes I wonder why,
You...never came close to me.....
Tell me why, you made me cry,
Now I know it was not worth my time.....

Should I listen for the first time..
Should I make you wanna be mine...
Should I fight this empty feeling inside..
or Should I let it fade in time...

Sometimes I wonder why,
I pushed you so far away,
Tell me why, its now I try,
To understand and make it worth my time.. Yeah..

Should I listen to my heart this time
Should I make you wanna be mine
Should I fight this strong love inside
or Should I let it burn in time......

Leaving all this pain aside you still made my  heart cry
Lost inside this pain my heart devours what's inside
Thinking were we meant to be
Am I loosing my mind
All I wanted was to be with you.....

Should I Fight this feeling baby....yeah.....
Should I just make you Mine.... Oooohh ...
Should I have ya or shouldn't' I
Should I Should I never Baby......
Could I Just Let it all disappear.......

Sometimes I wonder why, you never came close to me......

Notting Hill Carnival...

A time to celebrate the goodness in life and bring out the colorful personalities. Time to unleash the beauty within people through costumes, culture, food, beer, laughter and music from the West Indian world!....

Since 1964 the streets of London in the west Notting Hill area, people from the west indian community lead the parade every year in august for two to three days of non stop carnival. Families, friends and visitors from around the world gather to take and taste a glimpse of this extravagent carnival so colorful and beautiful. Yes you also see all the lovely sexy ladies and their humps and bumps:)

Now how can any Carnival happen to its fullest potential if they dont have the Fashion, Disco and Beauty Queens parading their too..??? hehehe so yes Me, Matilda and Christina along with Adam and lovely Berit paraded the streets of Chelsea and Notting Hill dancing away with the rest of  the 2 million of other people.

In This Carnival we girls make the rules up as we go and if you ever wanted to break one or two Notting Hill Carnival is sure the place to do so... :) Make sure you are a part of this carnival next year August as this is the second best biggest carnival in the world which is a must must see:) !

Girls, Girls, Girls!

Girls, Girls, Girls.....Long Legs, Red Lips, Fingertips, Dancing down London all night , Everywhere and Anywhere, Girls, Girls, Girls....... :)

Christina the Disco Queen, Matilda the Fashion Queen and Off course Chatz the Beauty Queen are turning London upside down! Gin and Tonic, Rum and Coke and JD on the Rocks sure does the trick for us girls to get on our feet and shake what our mamma's given us:)

Partying Non Stop, hangovers and pancakes with coffee the next morning, giggles of extraordinary moments spent each minuite , we sure are living life to the fullest. Could it happen anywhere in the world? I would say so But right here In London Town we are jiggling it all the way...... :)

Girls, Girls, Girls, Tight Pants, Straight Hair,  Dancing the night away in London Town Everywhere and Anywhere, Girls, Girls, Girls........................

The Party Just Continues............ !

You Gotta Love London !

Here I am back in the city after 1 year....so busy that the world says "It Never Sleeps" so true... so much to do so much to shop, Food, Fashion, Fun, Friends and Family.....simply.... Fabulous.... :)

Having great friends such as my beautiful eyes, my Christina here in White City im seeing London all over again in a whole new perspective. Enjoying new moments which I never thought I would or could once again back where I grew as a person and met many great friends during the 5years I lived here.

A time to cease all pain. A time to wake up and enjoy Life as it comes. With much mixed emotions I walk around great london with many thoughts to my self that I cannot share with anyone but me! Im feeling new things that I thought I would never ever feel, it's like my senses are awakeneing me. If im honest to myslef even I dont know what is happening to me.

But what I do know is spending time with Shanika, Christina, Tobi and lots of my friends and even new friends... I have forgotten what it truly is to live life to the fullest.

Dining out, Arts that speaks to your heart, spending your hard earnt money on labels instead of love is something I never felt gulity about.. and that you can do right here in London!:) cinema and popcorn and a good old laughing time with a girlfriend as great as Stina, a great girl movie like "bridesmaids" is sure a great night out.. but wait.. the pubs.. the beer... the cocktails and the JD's ooooohhhh the MUSIC???? you gotta love LONDON!

Music My Passion!

Mother strokes her big belly, carrying a 6month year old baby and attending rock music festivals, what kind of a cool mom are you? watching dad all the way from moms body, hearing him sing out loud, the voice so powerfull that even when inside the womb I applaud with great proudness to you dad, for being the greatest musician i've ever known.

Having carried both your artistic and genes of talent, I was soon born to this world. By the age of 1year and 4months as you say mom, I having a ear to pick up music, picked up the hymn and began to play the piano and hum my first song "Silent Night, Holy Night". Ever since My parents and off course I knew my Musical Life had begun.

Begining primary school at AMI Montesorry where at the age since 4years, I brought out all my talent at school concerts and various other performances. Having not looked back at my life of music since then I have continued my performances in all other schools I atteneded. It certainly didnt stop there, yet it continued. At the early age of 16years I participated in the all island musical talent contest "TNL ONSTAGE 2002". This was the event that gave me a platform to bring out my true talent, my Passion for Music, my Singing. With four competitive rounds and a Big Finale I had the great oppertunity to Win The "Best Soloist Category" that year.

Ever since I certainly havent looked back nor stop but continued singing my heart out in every oppertunity I had been given. Music makes me Happy, It unites me with the universe. Its a language that speaks directly to my heart and soul feeding me with great pleassure.A big Thank You for my Family, Friends, loved ones and off course all my loving fans, for the endless supoort and stregtth you have all given me.


Till death do us apart, from the day of conception to the day my soul shall rest, Music my Passion let it heal me..................

Life in the Media

Camera Roll.....STANDBY.....READY.....and ACTION.........

Out of all my desperate struggles in life, I fnally found a job that allows me to bring out my true personality. Yes being a part of a great TV station and being able to host my very own shows, is the best thing I have ever done in my entire life.

I began my Media life at the age of 15. Ever since winning TNL ONSTAGE my career in the music industry and in the media industry began. This has always been a great dream of mine to connect with people through music, the one language that brings the world close. Today being part  of the TV and having a career that was just made for me makes me truly happy.

To many of you who think Media life is great YES it sure is, the whole production team plays such a vital role in putting all acts together. Behind the scenes we all work so hard to make sure you guys enjoy the best shows and off course we put all our efforts in making the best TV shows possible simply for your viewing pleasure.


Now to all you music lovers you can tune to CSN or Prime TV channels within Sri Lanka, and to all who wants to watch it online, the page is www.primetv.lk and enjoy "The Global Music Show" every weekday at 11am (Sri Lankan time), where I host and present you the best of today's, yesterdays music from all over the world. A great variety of music videos, Hot Celeb Gossip , Fashion tips and so much more. Also to everyone who wants to have a chit chat with me on live TV you can watch "Music Runway" every weekday at 6pm (Sri Lankan time) and call me on 0094-112775283 for all requests and dedications. To all of you who are further interested about these shows and wondering how you can contact me, log on to Facebook through your profiles and simply type, "Music Runway" and for the other show "Global Music Show" and you can access our very own fan page where you are free to post your comments and views.

Now to all my frequent callers and great fans who have supported me endlessly a big Thank You! for being a great audience. If it isn't for you lot, this show wouldn't be possible. Also a big Thank You for my great friend Yasara for giving me this opportunity, its been amazing and working with the producer Malinda and Dulanjanee, and the rest of the crew you guys rock. Keep up the good work.


Finally I must tell you all "Never give up on your dreams, cause you never know when the next may come true" Dream big, Dream not just while your asleep but mostly when your awake".


Always remember when one door closes many other doors open :) So Go out, and grab your future dreams may it be in the media sector or perhaps a different category. Either way Good Luck to you all!


AND>>> CUT...........

Click below for the Fan Pages:)
http://www.facebook.com/MusicRunway
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Global-Music/122568704501813
www.primetv.lk (for online viewings)
(Please note I' m not on FB. Any Page under my name are all fake)

City of Time!

Tis the time to Love a City, a place full of Life, full of Energy. Growing up in a place so warm, beautiful and breathtaking is surely a gift. Having traveled many great cities and great countries and yet have found None that can be compared to the Blessed Island "The Pearl of the Indian ocean" My country, My Sri Lanka.

Being away from home and coming back and spending all these months back in sunny Colombo, I have realized what life is and what potential it has for me and always will. Colombo brings out the true me.

Being surrounded by family, friends, loved ones and everyone and anyone is such a warm deep feeling inside. A feeling of Love that captures our hearts and connects each and everyone of us in a whole different level. As the city is small in its size it somehow seems that in this city everyone always knows someone. Its a mystery chain that is linked with many wires that cannot be broken even if gone abroad or not. A connection so strong that only a few realize how to appreciate it.

Many travel seeking that connection for life's existence, to make life more lively more worthy to live for, but for some of us it is already there where ever you are. It all happens when you least expect it. So stop the struggle of finding happiness, just embrace it as it comes. Surely god created man and woman for companionship so not you nor me will ever be alone anymore.

Time is a great healer indeed. Believe in it and do your time, and at last you will find true Happiness without any doubt. Through Time and space, today I stand in a place far from where I was before. It slowly gradually opens you up to accept life as it is and simply appreciate for all what its given for you.

If your in any place that is deep and is struggling to get out remember my friend I too was in it and now through Time it set me Free. Here's A quote that makes me belive and I would like to remind us all through this quote embrace the beauty of life before Time runs out on you!

"Yesterday Is History,Tomorrow is a Mystery, But Today is a Gift, That is why its called The Present"
(Kung Fu Panda)

Enjoy The Present that is been given to you. Remember 'Nothing is Impossible', You just Got To Believe and let Time Travel with you!

Peace and Love, Chatz xoxo

Traffic Lights

Red says "STOP" we stop. 
Yellow says "Get Ready" we are half way there.
Green says "GO"  GO it is.........

At certain times due to the circumstance we all are put into a time of trial. The road we travel is a mystery that's out there. During our travel time we face many obstacles, "Traffic Lights" are a sure delay that puts our lives on hold for a period of time.We all get stuck in it no matter how much we try to avoid or run pass a light, we eventually come across another.

Likewise certain people walk into your life at different time frames! In mine many have walked in and walked out! Has it happened in yours?

A friend, a brother, a companion, a teacher, a lover, a lovely person you are to me! Are you not seeing the straight light ahead? Don't worry, be happy cause we both know that in time you will see that light, the one light that guides us to eternal life. This light will be bright and it will shine right through you!

I may be not the one for you, your destiny allows you to be with her! Yet my friendship and loyalty I surrender it all. I will always be there for you as you have during my struggle of time. I will not abandon you even if so the world may do.

Remember I myself am stuck at a traffic light, the Red kept me waiting for 8 long long months that felt like 80 years, and now I'm stuck at Yellow where I'm kept in between and to see the Green, I don't know how long more...

My friend I believe you are at a point where you too are stuck at a traffic light. However my prayers are going to take you right pass it sooner than you know. All the sessions of our youth time spent together which where you yourself taught us, spoke to us, today right now I tell you, I remind you, your own words "God will take care of you till the end" therefore "Be not afraid"

All the way till the end I will treasure you and keep your footprints in my heart close to me forever. What ever difficulty you and me we all face in life remember my dear one its just a matter of time as each traffic light we face the road still continues ahead. So buckle up the journey is long be Strong! 


GO GREEN........

Don't Cry

“It’s time you dry those tears and face each day as it comes” well, “I’ am trying so hard to just be positive and brave” And then “Great you will be fine, with or without him”.

There’s a time to cry and a time to dry all the tears you’ve cried. Never let anyone make you cry because the one who makes you, doesn’t deserve your tears, they never did cause if they did they won’t make you cry.

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changing inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You got to make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

Thank You Gun’s n Roses for this beautiful song. A song that speaks right to my heart and soul, A song that brings me hope when there is no hope. A song that reminds me that no matter what or who will bring you down, just wipe your tears and sorrows, just move on.  You will always be a part of my life long journey, be close to me, guide me and in spite of nothing just at all time Always & Forever be with me.